Sunday, November 15, 2009

i m just really thankful today.

yesterday i wasnt feeling good. i had a cough and a flu and headache. i was feeling mildly warm. and though perhaps my flu, fever cough combi that usually takes me out of action for 3 days was coming. so i told myself. wah. not bad. if i report sick after i book out. i can get 3 days of attend c. then tuesday i wont have to go back to camp to do duty since i m on leave on monday. then i thought. nah. its not very nice. i ll just ask if anyone wants to swoop. if not. i ll just do my duty. even if it means i cant spend the evening with julie. so i took redoxon and drank loads of water.

this morning. when i ended my duty. i was still feeling really crappy. in fact. my throat was worse and my nose was blocked and i had a migraine. so i was thinking. wah. liddat. how to serve. maybe i shouldnt serve. maybe i shouldnt attend service. i shud just go home and rest. but i was like. i ll just sleep awhile, then i ll serve and attend service. anyway. i wont have a chance to do that for the next 3 weeks since i m leaving for thailand. so i slept for 2 hours. woke up at 10. and flew to church from camp.

it was so interesting. the second i stepped into church. i stopped sneezing. and i stopped coughing. gradually. my headache left me. i still felt sore and blocked. but during service. i felt like everything was getting better. coupled with the herbal sweets that julie passed me. it was all the perfect remedy. thank God! and thank my dear future-girlfriend. :p

i thought pastor preached a great word today. haha. super relevant to how i have been feeling the entire week. anyway. during my own QT earlier this week, i just felt God calling me into a season of sowing into peoples' lives and striving to love them unconditionally. so i guess servanthood must be a good supplement to have. haha. i served today. was my second time. i was glad that i managed to help this guy out. he had been in church for about a month. chatted with him about church. helped him with choosing a bible. and recommended him some material that was on offer and would bless him. and i just love this feeling when u speak, two examples was when i was on the phone last night with julie and today in attributes, and u feel the spirit of God just come upon u. and as u speak and kinda listen to urself. u just go wow. and thank God that He is speaking thru u and that u can be a vessel that he can use.

well. i thought that today was one of the biggest complements i could receive. before we started serving. we prayed. before that, jiaxuan asked any two of us to pray today. so i was thinking. i wanna pray. i wanna confess the word of God. hopefully i can bless someone. so something stirred in my spirit and i prayed. it was short cus obviously i havent practiced alot and i need to pray more. but afterwards, while we were in the shop.
kelvin asked me, "hey, have u been in church for a long time."
i was like "yeah, pretty ok la. i think its about slightly more than 5 years now." and he was like, "hmm, i thought so."
then i was like "why do u ask?"
then he was like "cus of the way u pray. u pray like u have the dna of this church." and i just felt so blessed and touched.

like i was telling caleb during service when pastor kong told us to speak to our neighbours about our dreams.
1. Spiritually, i wanna grow in stature. so that i can carry a recognizable spirit of God, that can impact and bless those around me. that i can draw people unto me, whether its my friends, or strangers i speak to and serve or its my ex girlfriend whom i m trying to win back.
2. I wanna build a retail business that sells a lifestyle, rather than a product, that can influence the people of today, especially the youth.

i really hope. in the months ahead. i can draw closer to my dreams and my calling. most of all, i just wanna draw closer to God.

its been an awesome day!

|cowpoo| 5:52 PM|

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